My life has been just this spiral of suck lately. Briannas birthday was yesterday. The 14th is the day she passed. I feel so alone every single night. I can’t talk to my friends because they couldn’t care less about me. It’s sad, but true. The only time they even talk to me anymore is when they want something, or when they have no one else. It’s really sad how I try to include all of my friends when I want to do something but they never do. They just don’t care. That’s the truth. I hate being someone’s back up. I think I’m going to just become a loner. It’s so much easier. Not having to listen to other peoples shit, and if i’m a loner then i wouldnt have any shit so i wouldnt have to bore other people with my shit. This post isnt about my friends though. It’s about how my world is suckish. My grandma is dying of cancer and i still have yet to come to terms with it. I didnt sleep at all last night, which sucks because i dont sleep on sundays anyways, so i guess i’ll be taking an extra pill tonight. The only thing keeping me from pulling my hair our right now, is Braylon. I dont know what I’m going to do when Ryan comes to pick him up. Because as of right now, he’s the only thing making me smile. Goshh, i’m not even grinning at my ATL desktop.